i am not been well lately, both physically and mentally. i've caught a cold, sore throat and cough its killing me. im so sensitive nowadays and i dont even know why. the negative energies keep coming to me, it sucks. i tried to going out with friends, but it doesn't help at all.
i'm at the point of my life where i need a 'change'. my life has been going on the same routine almost every-fucking-day. just like a robot, which has been set. i wake up early, having my breakfast, then go to colloge. eat my lunch then go home, watch drama till the time for bed. 4 days out of 7. where friday, saturday and sunday, i just lazying at home drama marthoning or even sit all day at the cafe. i tried to kills time by doing things like that. i just really need a break.
almost three years of being single. that things never bother me before cause i know the right person will come at the right time. but now, i envy people who go out at saturday night and having a person to talk to at the most unimportant things. to be honest, i scared of been in a relationship. its not making any sense but i just scared of wasting my time with a wrong people. i saw a lot of people failed at the end and it scares me.
"everything will be so good so soon just hang in there and don't worry about it too much."